Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Cry Baby

I left church on Sunday in tears.  While I would love to say it's because I was so moved by the sermon... we didn't make it through the 2nd song, much less the sermon.  We waited so long for this pregnancy and persevered through 2 miscarriages... we want this baby so much.  I'm so thankful for this baby but I'm tired of feeling lousy.  Sunday marked the 13 week mark and I spent the entire weekend fighting a migraine, morning sickness and exhaustion.  Isn't my energy suppose to be coming back by now?!?  This picture pretty much sums up what my days have been looking like. 


Pathetic, right?  Again, we're so thankful for this baby but I'm ready to start feeling better.  So why did I cry?  Well, I was feeling lousy and a few ladies asked how I was feeling (I had missed the previous week due to a nasty cold).  I could have lied but I didn't and just said, "Still morning sick."  The common response was telling me to be thankful.  Sigh.  Not the compassionate response I was looking for.  I already feel like I'm failing as a wife since I'm  barely getting anything done around the house... and these comments made me feel like a failure of a pregnant mama-to-be.  So I cried like a baby.  The hormones definitely aren't helping but I feel like this pregnancy is turning me into such a Cry Baby! 

Somebody tell me it gets better, please!

4 comments:

Tara G. said...

If I were there, I'd drive over and pick you up for a walk along the coastal trail. Or just around the block. Praying for you!

Natasha said...

Praying for you! Remember when we are weak then HE is strong! He is there for you! I'll be praying that the ickyness goes away VERY soon and that God gives you strength until then

Sarah said...

I can't wait for you all to be parents. But yes, pregnancy isn't a walk in the park. I know I can't get anything done during my first trimester. I get so tired and the last thing I want to do is cook or clean. It does get better (at least for most people it does). Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!!

Sylvia said...

I know this is an old post and that you don't know me well, but still...I couldn't let it pass! Cut yourself some slack - ups and downs go with the territory! I had it pretty easy with the morning sickness, and I still felt fairly sorry for myself at times. Hopefully you're feeling more yourself now...but yeah. :o)